Birthdays and Bling

I know I left you all hanging with the picture of just a diamond ring. Sadly it wasn't a surprise from Casey (I would rather have a a new Dslr camera instead). Our friend L and the tables turned on her by her now fiancée K, she was planning a surprise birthday party for him. Well it became an engagement/birthday party, Casey and I were taken by surprise by the engagement but other friends were in on it.

After pretty much taking over a restaurant and terrorizing the other patrons. We headed out for drinks.

It ended up being Karaoke night at the place we ended up after dinner. What does one do to celebrate their friends engagement and at the same time embarrass themselves? Well they sing "Straight Up" (Paula Abdul) with Lou.

I wasn't done embarrassing myself, I then decided I needed to sing some Reba. If your gonna sing Reba well it might as well be "Fancy". After throughly embarrassing myself, I decided to call it a night. But all in all it was a great night, I am so happy for L and K. I wish them the best of luck in all that life brings for them.

Yes in the second picture the happy couple are taking celebratory shots from our amazingly patient server at dinner.


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These are the Days that make it all worth it.

I am sitting here, I am not having any ideas. Life in the past weeks has seem to be easily calm for the most part. I mean there has been the everyday struggles that every wife and mother has. Nothing though to write home about, I am enjoying the joys. I drink each one in with a smile and deep breath. My days are filled with lots of smooches and hugs, I am don't know how long this happy days will last before the next thing swoops out and takes us by surprise.

So I will let the days be filled with blowing bubbles, snuggly naps together in the big bed, afternoon swims, random book filled trips to the library, and lots of hugs.

I love when these days come to a close; with suits drying, the bubble bottle a little more empty, a library bag full of new adventures, a heart filled to the brim with love, and a toddler bed filled with an sleeping toddler who has stolen my heart (or those nights where the exhausted toddler wants to play with his Daddy who has recently returned to work instead of sleep, I understand those feelings even if the Daddy doesn't).
My biggest fear is to wake up one morning and realizing that everything that makes life worth living is gone. My new goal is to drinking life in big gulps all that I can take in and enjoy them all. So that the next time the darkness tries to rule, I have sword to fight back with.

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To the Hostess at Chili's

Dear Hostess;
As someone who has done you job in the past, I know it can be stressful at times. This Sunday evening was not one of those nights. I was appalled by you lack of common sense when doing your job tonight. We arrived during a slow time and were promptly seated. That was about the only time you did anything right. After being seated we waited over five minutes to be greeted by our server because you didn't tell him he had a table. I understand that you try to keep your seating rotation fair but our server's section had numerous other tables open. Though you had to sit the family with two preschool aged children directly beside us. Who then proceeded to scream and distracted our well behaved toddler from eating in essence ruining our meal because we had to stop eating ourselves to constantly keep Ian from behaving rudely in public. Unlike some parents we don't condone our child acting like an animal in public. It is common sense and decency in an empty restaurant to not sit children by children. Maybe if you would pull yourself away from flirting with the Bartender to do your job, you might have noticed this. I don't think Chili's is paying you to work on your love life. So maybe if you take a bit more care in doing your job and a little less time flirting, you might notice these things. To anyone that wonders this was the Chili's on Knox Ave. in Dallas, Tx.

One Week In

It has been an extremely good but interesting week. Casey started back to work on Monday, I am unsure of how it is going. He keeps saying," It is to early to tell." Which I can totally understand, he isn't even doing everything he will be doing yet. Ian and I have been keeping our selves busy, too busy I realized today. When we woke up this morning we were both spent, we had a chill breakfast and then spent the day in our jammies. After a few hours of playing and some cuddles thrown in we, wondered down the hall to Mommy and Daddy's big bed and snuggled up for some Mommy and Ian napping. When we laid down I figured we would nap for like an hour. Boy was I wrong 3 and a half hours later I was woke up by a a kiss on the cheek and a little boy asking for a snack. So we got up and scrounged up a snack and has some more cuddling, while countdown the minutes until Daddy (Casey got home) we both were missing him badly. So I think that when I blogged last week worrying about a new rountine, I think I maybe stressed about it too much. I think I need to mellow out a just enjoy our days together and whatever they may bring.

Even if that means after nap snacks in my bed so I can put away clean clothes.


A morning adventure outside with the blanket.


Taking it easy most days trying to stay cool, when it is a almost 90 degrees before 10 am.


What are your plans for what is left of your summer?

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Dog Days of Summer

The past week has been too hot to handle, we have been enjoying our last week with Casey before he returns to work. We have had a date, a mystery rash causing virus (that is its own post), and lots of lounging around.

I can't forget to mention though that Ian got a hold of his powder while he was supposed to be napping and got it everywhere. So the next week is going to be a huge shift from what had become a comfortable routine for the three of us(we may have been tired of each other but still it was nice to have an extra set of hands). So Ian and I will be spending our days, getting into a new old routine. Any advice?
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With the Flip of a Coin

Last week I wrote this, which was all doom and gloom. Well whatever medication they had tried to put me on was not doing it's job. It made every trait I dislike about myself come out times ten. My husband finally admitted to me that during the past few weeks he still loved me but very much dislike the way I was behaving. After a meltdown over spilled soda last Friday, I realized that the medication that they had me trying was not working. So as much as I wanted to change medication off of Paxil, I am going to go with the the motto if it ain't broke don't fix it. As it dawned on me that I might lose all that I loved. My behavior was horrid, I was losing my cool over the dumbest things. I was snapping at Ian when he didn't do anything. Knowing Casey was going back to work in just a few days, something had to change. So with that I started back on the Paxil. With in just a couple days, I was feeling more in control of my self. I know that not everyone likes medication, some are very against it. As someone who has been battling Anxiety and Depression for years and to finally found a medication that helps. So for those who have dealt with this type of things in the past, how do I inform my doctor that I don't thinking change medication is the right way to go?
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Lovable Labels BlogHer'10 Getaway Contest

In the past year Social Media has brought me numerous new friends, these friends in real life and on the tubes have banded together when I needed a friend this past year. Out of the numerous new friendships I have been lucky enough to have made, there is a core group that I am so thankful for. Of this group most are lucky enough to be attending BlogHer in NYC in just a few weeks, this is conference of the year for most women bloggers. I know how badly my friend Jamie would love to have the chance to getaway to NYC with her girlfriends for a few days.

Jamie and I both live in the Lonestar state, we are both 25, both first time moms (our babies are only 6 months apart) and so many other similarities. We didn't even know each other until right be the Evo Conference, that happened just a few weeks ago. Once we got to talking we both realized how much we have in common and stressful the past year had been for us both. Her family has been hit hard with her Dad having multiply types of caner and the family stress that brings. With the last few days her niece has come to stay with her. Not to mention a battle with secondary infertility and finally the day to day stress of being a women, wife, and mother.

We realized quickly that the we would be fast friends. We are sad that we live four hours apart, we won't get to see each other as much as we like. Thankful for social media to stay connected, but we love to have a girlfriend getaway to NYC. It we would be great to unwind and spend a few days with such a great friend.
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What if it isn't enough

If you follow me on twitter, in the past month are so you might have notice my annoyed tweets about my husband. I don't know if these are growing pains, the fact that we have spent almost all our time together the last 3 months, or maybe we are reaching the end( I hope and pray it isn't that). I know that the circumstances over the past bit have not been easy for us, it seems right as we are getting to a place were everything is working and we are communicating well. We get slapped in the face, I selfishly want to wish this on others sometimes. We have only been married 3 years and have been through so much (for a non-military marriage). Three Layoffs, me have to stop going to classes because of said layoffs, each stretch of un-employment get longer, a child, a miscarriage, going down to one car (this may not seem like a big deal to some, but being we live in Dallas, and the Public Transportation here blows it is a big deal), having to ask for help from our parents more then any grown married couple should. These are just the ones that came to mind at the moment, I know that there is more. We don't communicate well at all, we have different love languages, we have different fight styles, different views on faith and different views on how a home should be kept. I know with out any one having to tell me my fight (argument) style is not fair and is truly very ugly, there is no excuse for this. I didn't have great example of how to communicate effectively with your spouse, I knew at a very young age that my parents didn't need to be together. They fought unfair they struck out at each other when the other was the weakest. I am very sad to say that I have been and still do sometimes fight like this. I am trying to change but sometimes I am successful, but at times when I am overly stressed and upset I fall back on old habits. Which cause him to shut down and ignore the words, gestures. In the past week, I feel like all the words I am saying are falling on deaf ears after a very ugly fight we had this past Sunday. Things were said that can never be taken back, I am the guilty party. When I ask him what to do to fix it, he says he is through arguing. I wish it was that easy, I know that every couple fights, nothing can be perfect all the time it isn't human nature. I just want to argue less, I think we both have so much hope in the new job he is due to start on the 19th. What if when he goes back to work and the stress of the past few months begins to fade, that things don't truly get easier? I know before anyone can say it, don't make any life altering choices right now are during the next few months.

I know that, life isn't supposed to be easy and the same can be applied to marriage. So please before you start talking about, counselling and all the good it brings. We plan on it when our insurance takes effect but it isn't something we can afford at the moment. Also my biggest fear is that after a year we will get another pink slip, and I don't know if he will be able to get another job. This past layoff we learned all the jobs he has had is hurting him, even with every old supervisor singing his praises and saying it isn't his fault. The company he is going to work for still had doubts hence the reason it took so long for them to make an offer. I know that I could get a job but, with after paying for daycare and such my take home would be less then $100 a week. In my mind that isn't worth giving my time to some company if I am not bringing enough home to make it worth it. Also as a former Daycare employee, no matter how nice it seems they are not what they seem. So as selfish as it may seem to my husband, my family and others; I can't let Ian be in childcare full time. I would be okay, with maybe one day a week for social interaction but in reality I know that it is selfish of me to want to stay home. I know that my choice in the end can be hurting my family, but as a child of a mom that stayed home until I started school and I don't know all the details but I am somewhat sure his mom stayed home too. It is hard to know when he want talk about growing up much, which is fucking infuriating, I want to ask his sister sometimes but some of the questions I have are not always as respectful. He keeps asking me what am I going to do once Ian goes to school, well first I would like to finish school. So that I can have a job that pays better then the retail field, I am so over the service industry with it's crazy schedules, low pay, and so many more things. How can I make all this work, I feel like we built our foundation on sand and it is slipping away.

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I did not go back through and do a finally edit, so please keep all grammar, spelling and other complainants to you self. I need to get this out there, it is part of the reason I have been having trouble with my words as of recently. It is hard to write about what is going on in yor life when you are trying to avoid the biggest thing.

Mom it won't go in the hole!

This afternoon mere minutes before a the rain hit we were outside enjoying one of the joys of summer. Ian is still getting it down, though this afternoon he managed to actually blow a bubble. Which he promptly popped out of surprise. Even more challenge for him is getting the wand in the hole, it just isn't easy for him. Poor guy spent over a minute trying to get it at one point. He will just look at me frustrated and say in the hole, but if I try to help he just gets angry. Any advice moms?

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Where or Where did my words go?

The words are not coming to tell you about all that I learned and the wonderful women I met during my time in Utah, while attending the Evo Conference at The Canyons. My mind is full of things I want to write about, women who when they spoke filled me with emotions (and when they took a moment to speak to me and to listen to what I was saying, one of these women Stephine called me out on not telling my stories and using my son as a shield, she said it in a much more eloquent manner but I understood the meaning). Which I am very guilty of doing, I have been hiding behind him. The women I have met through social media especially Jamie and Lolly know that isn't how I want to be and in person not how I am. So how do I find my words to tell my stories the ones that I am living in this moment and the ones that helped make me the women I am today?



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Where To Start

The past couple weeks have thrown so many curve balls at me that I have no idea where to start. I have been to Utah and Back, had my flight home canceled, attended an amazing social media conference, came home to a grumpy husband, a clingy baby. Spent a few days getting my home back up to par. Had our old neighbor from college and his lovely lady friend come visit, celebrated the fourth with old friends and had a belated celebration today with friends. A midnight movie premiere, a breakfast out with good friends and can't forget an afternoon of playing in the rain. Oh and one case of food poisoning.

I had to start back somewhere and now I have. You also have a sneak peak of what is coming in the next few days weeks. I had to dive in somewhere after my short hiatus, it wasn't planned but it was nice.
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When is the last time you Danced in the Rain?