I ain't getting nothing for Christmas..

Cause I have been nothing but bad!

Mommy's Break

Thursday was spent in bed mostly, watching Season One of Castle. I did get up and shower to go to Lauren's family's Thanksgiving. As soon as I got home from dinner I climb right back into bed, until I was so hungry I needed to hunt for food. While I was out scavenging for food, I decided to wander through CVS. Why you may ask I have no idea, but I did come out with a couple of magazines. I haven't felt the feeling of what to do in such along time. I love the feeling of no obligations, I was supposed to be finishing unpacking and cleaning like crazy which I will do in a panicked rush now. Since I spent the day watching the Scream Trilogy, I love those movies.





So now that it is after midnight and my boys will be home in about 12 hours I am going to rush off to clean some. I am so glad that I decided to stay home at let the boys spend Thanksgiving with out me, it has made all the Dark and Twisty, all but disappeared . Lesson learned don't let those feelings go so far next time, ask for alone time before reaching the point of no return.

RG Natural Babies

RG Natural Babies is offering two of my readers the chance to save some extra money on their already awesome Black Friday Deals. RG Natural Babies is also offering to all shoppers that spend over $100 to enter them in a drawing for 2 pocket diapers and a wet bag (that are in stock) and for all purchases over $100 that are made between Black Friday and Cyber Monday will be entered in a drawing for a custom diaper bag (you will have to pay shipping on the bag). So here are the codes (remember they are only good on Black Friday and only for the first person to use the code:

$5 off an order over $25: BobbiBF5 

 $10 off an order over $55:  BobbiBF10

Happy Shopping!

 

Happy Thanksgiving

2009 has been a good and rough year in our household, but the good has out weighed the bad. We have a healthy and happy son. Casey and I have our health and great marriage.  Casey has a job, and this one seems to have a little bit of job security. We have a roof over heads, food in our pantry, and love for each other. 2009 also brought me new friends, some of which I came to know through blogging. I am very thankful to have met and befriend such wonderful women as Nessa, Lauren, J, Vanessa, Lynette, Jes, and Marjorie, just to name a few. The best gift I have been given this Thanksgiving is that my Boys have gone to Visit my In-Laws for a little over sixty hours. What is it that I plan to do with this time alone you ask, well finally get my home set up, have Thanksgiving dinner with Lauren and her family (I am guessing that she didn't want me spend the holiday completely alone), sleep, read, and anything else I can think of. So far I have spent my day snuggling with FootFoot in bed watching Castle season 1 on Dvd. Now I must go get ready to go gorge my self on Thanksgiving foods.

Dark and Twisty

Fair warning this is a Dark and Twisty post, where I am going say some uncomfortable things. The future it seems that everyone is always talking about it except Casey and I. We never discuss where we want to be in five years and so on. When people ask me what am I going to do with my self I always say teacher, but in reality I have no idea if I am going to be alive in 5 years. I have always felt since I was little (8 or 9 years old) that God's purpose for me would be completed when I was young. I am not talking suicide here people just that I wasn't meant to walk on this earth for a long life. As God has taken those I love away from me and at pretty consistent rate, I wonder how can he expect me to stay here with out them. My biggest in life is that I will be left alone with out those I love, I know that I wouldn't be able to survive.I know that most people would say that this is me being over dramatic but it is how I feel, I have know clue where and what god has planned for me but I couldn't handle it if he left me alone.

If you can't tell right now I am in a very dark and twisty place, I am in desperate need to reconnect with  God and Myself. I try to talk about my feelings to those who care about me but they always think I am attacking them when I start talking. Which I am not I am just trying to say that I feel overwhelmed, need more help and a break. I can't do it all and I know that I don't but at this moment I feel as if I am about to pull my hair out and sit in the corner rocking back and forth singing. My son has not gotten out of his pj's one day this week, I say it is because of the weather but in truth it is because I am emotional exhausted, my mind has been working in overdrive recently. I think our move effected me more then I expected, I felt the same way after I first moved to College Station. I had a great support group of friends right there, I know that I didn't move that far but it is far enough. I have gone from seeing them once to twice a week to once a month. If you can't tell I am the type of girl who thrives on being surrounded by those I love.

I also need a break from my child, I need at least 24 hours of not changing diapers, wiping snotty noses and so forth. I know that selfish but I need to reconnect with me to the best mother I can be. I would love to be able to get a massage or a pedicure, but trying to convince Casey that they aren't a waste money is like pulling teeth. It would be about impossible to convince him to let me go spend the night in a hotel by myself to reconnect with myself, I have friends that offered to let me spend a couple of days at there home. What I really need though is to be with me I have lost my self and I need find me and fast before I start drowning.

Confession Post

I am taking a page from a fellow blogger (Prairie Mama) and doing a confessions post. I know there are some many other things I should and could be posting about (reviews, giveaways, and the past couple weekends) but as of recent I have been feeling so busy that all I want to do is hide under the covers. Though hiding under the covers gets none of those finished but it makes me feel better. So I am instead going to doing a list post.

•  I have three loads of laundry to fold. 
• I need to rearrange some of the furniture in our bedroom since getting our new bed I can't close FootFoot cage door. 
• I can't stand the new female anchor on the local morning news.
• I really just want to take a trash bag to all of the unpacked stuff that is taking over my apartment.
• I secretly have no desire to put up any holiday decorations, I have felt this way the past few years. 
• I am excited about going to see New Moon tonight with Kari at midnight. 
• Ian's lack of napping is making me want to pull out my hair. 
• I need a weekend sans Baby and Husband, but I have no where to go visit (give me ideas people)
• Along the same lines I want my Husband and Baby to go visit people with out me for a couple of days so that I can clean in peace. 
• If you can't tell I am trying to fight off the darkness it is trying to claw it's way back in. 
• I love our new place but miss the close proximity to my friends, I didn't realize how much seeing my friends affected me. 

I think that I have rambled on enough, I hope that your day is going well.

Stargate Universe

I waited to post on Stargate Universe, til it had been on awhile I didn't want to jump the gun. At first I was upset at SyFy for the gross misrepresentation in the ads for Stargate Universe  that Lou Diamond Philips was a main character on the ship. I wouldn't call him a main character at all more a reoccurring character. I would have to say my favorite is Eli and how he isn't at all what you would expect on a show like Stargate Universe. His lack of military training, quirkiness, and so own. He reminds alot of a mixture of all my really good friends.

Overall I enjoy the show, I like that this is a almost complete new spin on the original idea. If you liked Stargate SG-1 or Atlantis you should check out Stargare Universe.

There is only one thing I really don't like and it isn't anyone's fault one of the characters reminds me of one of my ex's it is characters mannerisms and other things.

So go check it out and enjoy, even if you haven't watched the other shows you won't be lost.

*image from the stargate website

The Point

What a week...

Last week was one of those weeks were I have felt behind from the start. The time change threw us for a loop, Monday Ian woke up so early, and then not matter how I tried nothing was accomplished. Tuesday rinse and repeat Monday, Wednesday on the other hand was even more crazy then the previous days. I woke up knowing that Ian had his 9 month check up in Allen in the afternoon, Kari was coming with us and I needed to take back all of our old boxes back to Verizon Fios. Sadly our new place is not set up for Fios and I loved Fios. I then drove all the way up to Allen to find out the Ian's check up was the next day. I then decided since I was up there I would shop for a few things I needed. Well I got all wrapped up in shopping and lost track of time and I was supposed to make dinner for the Jenny. So I called a apologized and promised an amazing dinner the next night. Thursday was by far the craziest day of the week, Ian and I were go go go from the time he got up to the time he went to bed. As soon as he got up we had to go to Target to get the ingredients to make the amazing dinner I had promised to Jenny. Then it was home for Ian to take a short nap so that I could shower before we ran out the door to get to Lauren and Peanut's house for a playdate before Ian's nine month check up. After a quick playdate we were off to see Dr. Cook, to find out how Ian is a happy quirky Baby, who is going to be trouble since while we were there he went Mama na. After a good check up we were off to the Fios store to return the boxes I had forgot to return the day before. Then home to make Mushroom Eggplant Parmesan for Jenny, I winged my way through it and she said it was good. 




And that was just Monday-Thursday, look for our fast paced weekend in a different post.

Don't Bank With Wells Fargo.

Wells Fargo are liars. My husband received a check from the title company after the sale of his late mothers estate, I understand with a a large amount that Wells Fargo will hold the funds. The reason Wells Fargo are liars is, when Casey deposited it in our bank account, Wells Fargo told him that half the funds would be available after TWO businesses day. I understand that it was a large amount of money and wells Fargo wants to make sure it is real. That is not what is making me call Wells Fargo liars, it is the fact that after telling my husband TWO business days when I checked our account today and looked it won't be available for four business days or 6 days and the second half won't be available for ten days after it was deposited. So if you are bank shopping DO NOT GO WITH WELLS FARGO.

Talking Back...

I had another post ready to go and post but that went out the door when I watched a vlog on talking back to adults, I thought yay something about how others handle their children talking back. Boy was I wrong it tool a completely different turn, it turned out to be about strangers. I was talking to my dad about this subject not that long ago, we were talking about how he handle this subject with me. I know you are all think you should remember it had to do with you, but I want to hear his philosophy. when we were first having this discussion I remember thinking with him being a police officer that he would be over protective, because he sees so many bad things on a daily bases. Boy was I wrong, he was the opposite. His view is that young children shouldn't be taught to fear speaking to anyone, that it is the job of the parent to be their protector. I also agree with him that when you teach a child to be friendly and out going when they are younger is easier then trying to pull a child out of their shell when they are older.

That isn't what upset me though on the video, one of the moms on the video said that Respect had gone out of fashion. I disagree, that is the wrong attitude to have. That is the attitude that is making teachers, caregivers, and so on jobs so difficult today. I was raised to give everyone respect no matter who they are, that respect is not earned it is given. It can be lost, but it can be earned back. People telling there children that people have to earn respect is the wrong attitude to have, but that attitude would be better then what I am seeing out there today. I am including the vlog for you to watch and leave your opinion.

Beauty Tip of the Day

To-Do Tuesday 3

It is that time again for my list, I want to thank Lisa for having the great idea to host this every week. It is nice to have other people out there encouraging you to tackle your to-do list. I am going to break my to do list in to two parts one that is getting my home back together related and the other being the more regular to do list. Wow I just looked back at my other two list and I am doing quiet well.

Get with it list:

Continue Christmas Shopping

Attack the pile of laundry (ignoring it is not making it smaller)

Make a grocery list/ meal planning (our cupboards are bare)

`Make The Bradford's dinnet on Wednesday

House List:

Get Sunroom completely set up by Fri. 

Get pictures up 

get all boxes in living room in proper place

 

See Ya Next Week!

 

Been M.I.A.

I want to first say that I am so sorry that I haven't been blogging like I should the past  week, but moving will do that to the best blogger. If I am a reader and normally great commenter on your blog I want to say that I am very behind and what I have been reading is from my Blackberry which makes commenting not very easy.  I should be back to my old over commenting self soon. On the subject of comments I always feel stupid commenting on certain blogger's blogs. Not because I don't have something I would like to say, it is they receive so many comments does my one comment matter, I might saying the same things as numerous other people. Does the writer of the blog really care to read what I have to say? Enough whining here about comments.

The past week, has been chaos I still feel as if I am drowning in a sea of cardboard boxes. Our new place is nice now that we got the one big problem fixed when we moved in the dishwasher would not drain and the the office kept giving us the run around when we asked what was going on. They should have just told us the truth that they were waiting for the new one to get here when we moved in, instead of giving us lame excuses. We now have a brand new dishwasher and it is nice. I feel as if not matter how much I unpack it seems that when I turn around there are more boxes.

Ian has taken to our new move better then I ever expected. He is in love with our new place and everything being on one floor. I am constantly watching him take toys back and forth between his room, living room and his play room. He loves being able to go anywhere he choose out side of the kitchen FootFoot's food is down in there so we have it gated off. 

I promise I will try to be a better blogger and commenter now that our move is complete.  I guess at the moment I have rambled enough.